My stress and terrible habits continued to compound until February 2010, where I reached my highest weight of roughly 240 pounds. I say roughly because I was so disgusted with myself I couldn’t bear to look at the scale. I definitely saw 238, 239 or something like that during that time. My then-husband, a person who also had very unhealthy eating habits, had just left me after a shot at what turned out to be a terrible, stressful marriage that never should have happened. I found myself living alone in a foreign country, doing a job that was absolutely killing my soul, without any family to lean on and hardly any friends. I am 5’5.5″ tall. My BMI at 240 would have been 39.3 – so I feel comfortable saying I was either morbidly obese or less than 5 pounds away from becoming so. I had one pair of pants that fit. I still have them.
|The first thing I did was get a Wifi scale.. I tried it out on May 12, 2014. I weighed exactly 210 pounds. I started dieting on my own, but I also hired a wonderful personal trainer two weeks later to come to my house one time per week. That was a big deal to me. It was a high ongoing expense to me, and I also hated exercise. But I knew I had never made exercise a priority before, and I knew what my results would be if all I did was restrict calories – I had tried that many times before. I also knew if she didn’t come see me literally at my house, that there was no way I would stick to it. My trainer’s name was Anna. I started working with Anna in June 2014.|
|Anna helped me lose approximately 50 pounds. I restricted my calories to roughly 1200 Net per day, cut out animal products as much as I reasonably could for ethical reasons (I had always wanted to, but could never stick to such a strict diet before), engaged in the resistance training Anna prescribed 3 times per week, and in October 2014, also added 10K training three times per week, because I desperately wanted results. I did not enjoy any of these workouts, but I am very good at pushing through unpleasantness if there’s a light on the other side. I desperately wanted to lose weight, and I trusted Anna to make sure I wasn’t wasting my time.|
|I ran a 10K personal best at 64:06,90 in June 2015, and a 5K Personal Best of 30:46 in July 2015. I wasn’t happy with those results at the time, and I’m still not – I wanted to beat 62 minutes and 30 minutes for those distances. With Anna’s help, I got down as low as 147.9 pounds about that time. I was finally not overweight any more; I had a healthy BMI. I was closing in on my goal. During that year, I made all kinds of small little tweaks and changes to my lifestyle. Some stuck and were tremendously helpful. Some didn’t. And some fall somewhere in between. I hope to cover them on this blog over time. These small changes, along with the caloric restriction and exercise, were the magic sauce for me to finally get under 190, and lose another 40 pounds and keep it off.|
|Then I went on vacation for a month in August 2015. I gained 10 pounds. And ever since then, I have been in a new range, yo yoing back and forth, between 140.0 pounds (Lowest weight I’ve ever seen as an adult) and 155 pounds. In the intervening time, I moved away from Anna in December 2015 and discontinued our professional relationship. I have managed to stay in this range despite not having her with me. So I’ve officially maintained my weight for a year without her, but that is not enough for me. I would like to lose more body fat.|
|This is what I look like today, nearing the end of 2016. I weigh 147 pounds today. I estimate a goal weight of 125 or 130 for my body. Therefore I would like to lose approximately 17 to 23 pounds.|
I’ve done a lot, and I’ve come a long way. However, I have more to go, and then I have to learn to maintain my weight loss. Feel free to follow along or join me as I figure out how to finally kick these final 20 pounds.
Thanks for reading!